You keep waiting for that person for whom you voted to emerge, but then you start to realize that he's not, that he's just not.

He's done the math, and he's figured out the safest path.

Not the path that you thought that he would take. Not the path that he said (you remember him saying it, you remembered being moved by him saying it, you remember thinking that by him saying it that you could see [not that far in the distance, not that far at all] a version of the world that seemed more humane, more open-hearted)  that he would take.

You feel let  down. Bitterly disappointed. Just this side of conned. Maybe just conned.